Hey Beautiful People. Happy Friday.

I know, I’ve been MIA this week…no Mental Health Monday, no Therapy Thursday. Just radio silence and yelling internally (and maybe a bit externally).

Truth is, my mental health decided to go a little off the rails, like me. 💁‍♀️

I absolutely needed therapy (of course it wasn’t my week), and instead of unpacking my trauma in a safe clinical setting, I just dragged everyone around me into my personal tornado. Just kidding… kind of. Depends on who you ask and how close they were when the storm hit. 😅

Others, well they just got straight up ghosted.

I worked, I smiled, I kept the “everything is fine” mask duct-taped to my face like a pro.

However, there were good moments this week. Even a couple of great ones. But the energy it took to do basic human tasks drained me faster than my bank account on payday (for those who know me that is REALLY fast). And writing? Well, I need to be able to organize thoughts a lot of times to do that effectively, and well I just was not effective this week… just existing feels like a full-time job with no benefits at times.

Lately I’ve been toying with the idea of going back on meds for my bipolar. Absolutely NOBODY panic….I’m not fully unhinged… yet. But I’m definitely walking the line, like an unsteady tightrope performer. Not sure if it’s the disorder talking or just me trying to avoid having another round of pharmacy roulette, but I do take my mental health seriously and am self-aware. So, a decision will be made when the timing is right.

Fridays always hit different though. I woke up in a great mood for once... PS I also hate mornings, and I wanted to pop in to say I haven’t disappeared, I’m just… recharging my emotional battery. It’s taking longer than usual because someone (me) keeps leaving all the trauma apps open in the background, and like to cope with ways that make things worse 😊

Also, my main reason for writing today is I got emails. Actual messages from readers checking in to see if I was okay. STRANGERS. Reading my blog.

Caring about me. What the hell?? It shattered me in the best way. I started this thing just to scream into the void, and now the void is screaming back. That is so beautiful and certainly restored some of my faith in humanity.

Danica and I are planning something new for the blog. It’s going to be more interactive, more fun, more… us. If I can ever sit down and focus long enough to update the damn website, that is. ADHD and I are currently locked in a hostage negotiation. Spoiler: it’s not going well.

Story Sunday is coming this weekend, I will never miss one of those, I know it is my readers favorite 😉 and it’s going to be the most explosive one yet. Like, burn-it-all-down energy. You don’t want to miss it.

Until then, check on the people you love. Especially the quiet ones. We’re either healing… or plotting something deeply unhinged.

See you Sunday 💋